This will make it better.

I'm pretty sure this goes right up next to "You are Loved" by Josh Groban.
Vocal Point preformed this Saturday night. Pretty sure I cried.
Whatever you are facing right now, this will make it better.
You are not alone.





Come on, come on
You have got to move on
This is not the you i know
This isn't real
It's just all you can feel
And that's the way that feelings go
And whether or not it's right or wrong you'll do what you will do

When the cloud in the sky starts to pour
And your life is just a storm you're braving
Don't tell yourself you can't lean on someone else
Cause we all need saving sometimes

Say what you will but the time that we fill
While we're on the earth
Should not be alone
We were meant to be known
You make me what i'm worth
But i can't keep you from yourself you'll do what you will do

When the cloud in the sky starts to pour
And your life is just a storm you're braving
Don't tell yourself you can't lean on someone else
Cause we all need saving sometimes
I don't know why it has to be this way and
I don't know the cure
But please believe someone has felt this before

When the cloud in the sky starts to pour
And your life is just a storm you're braving
Don't tell yourself you can't lean on someone else
Cause we all need saving sometimes

Today:

I woke up with my alarm clock, and was wicked productive at work. I had my homework done before class. I fell in love even more with my photography class. I got the happiest letter in the mail from my missionary. I figured out my classes. I talked to my sister. I am getting homework done before ten. I walked a mile and a half around the track with Misao. I jogged a little. I ate healthy (Stew for lunch, Salad for dinner). I am going to shower and read my scriptures and pack my backpack for tomorrow and be in bed by midnight.

good day.
i am doin' my best.

a few things:

i think i want to double minor in photography.

i am going to go to China next year and teach English. 

and i am going to fight and overcome my knee replacement in order to do that.

nothing is going to stand in my way.

i'm 100% New England. i'm hardcore.

and i'm going to get back the part of my life that cancer took from me.

and then, i'm going to live it.

i have a second chance. and i'm going to do something with it.

that is all. 

i'm doing okay. 

i'm wrapped in security and hope and comfort and peace and determination.

i'm remembering how to be happy on my own again.

and i'm doing okay.

I'm doing my best

Falling asleep without you for just the third night in the row and I find myself praying hard and my hands tremble and my pillow is drenched in tears and smudged black mascara as I ask and hope for one more night, for one more moment, for one more second in your arms in Narnia.
and the quiet pulse of acoustic guitar seeps from your speakers propped on my desk, and the words of one of our favorite songs from your mix cd fill my room and you surround me everywhere here in this lonely little town in every way possible. And I feel your smile in every corner of every street and i miss your laugh at every table in the cafeteria and I see your back to me as you ride your bike down the hill and i feel the wind in my hair as i stretched my arms out on the back of a motor bike as we coasted down our favorite road and you screamed at the top of your lungs that you loved me more then anything and you are everywhere, you are everywhere, you are everywhere, down to the chipped blue nail polish on my toes and i miss you and i miss you and i miss you.

But I'm doing my best. I am doing my best and through a telescope lens, I'll see you soon.

Elder Dustin Carr

I just made, quite possibly, the hardest goodbye I ever had to make.
and in the face of so much change, so much unknown, so much excitement and hope and faith, my little sister, so wise beyond her years and bound to a promise she made with my best friend said:

"In order to see the rainbow, you gotta wait in the rain....or in your case, a hurricane. And then it will subside and it will be pretty overcast for a while. But don't worry. Your sunshine will come home back to shine on you before you know it."

I just said goodbye to the sunshine of my life for two years. And I really do look as if I've been standing in a hurricane. but here is the thing.

the shadow proves the sunshine.

because the sun always comes out tomorrow.

I am filled with hope.

we finished the hunger games last night.

"His voice isn't angry. It's hollow, which is worse. Already the boy with the bread is slipping away from me. 
I take his hand, holding on tightly, preparing for the cameras, and dreading the moment when I will finally have to let go." 

we won't say our goodbyes, we know it's better that way.

There isn't much for me to say that you don't already know.

thank you for everything.

 and for showing me what unconditional, selfless, true and pure love really is.

remember that i believe in you

and remember the bow.

you have always been, and always will be the only exception.

and i believe it. 

i will miss you something fierce,

but i know that through a telescope lens,

and when all you want is friends,

that i'll see you soon.

Ron Pope

Oh My Gosh, where has this musician been all of my life?
I'm dying with excitement. I've seriously listened to tons of his music today and I can't get enough.
And he's a fan of New England, which obviously, makes everything better.





also recently obsessed with iridescent by Linkin Park and the new Script album.

For the First Time

Oh these times are hard

Yeah they're making us crazy

Don't give up on me baby

go for it.

this can be done.