after 43 hours and 2700 miles...

and a flawless preformance by Cazz (including the most insane snowstorm through the Rocky Mountains in Colorado), I am home. I'll blog about it more later. I'm super gross and I need a shower.

new england bound tomorrow

I am all moved out and school is finished. I'm currently sitting on the couch with my best friend, Julianna and her husband (the big brother that I never had), and laughing super hard about everything, after eating a well balanced meal of macaroni and cheese, french fries and green beans. Cazz did beautifully today on the way to Utah. and I get to hug my dad tomorrow. Plus, I start the long, epic drive home tomorrow and I will find myself on New Hampshire Soil in just a few more days.

It's Snowing and I wore my Sunglasses

Rexburg weather is bipolar.

Cazz needs an oil change

I'm finished with all but one class

I get to see my Daddy on Saturday

I got a letter in the mail today from Sister Moore,

so the mailman is back on my Christmas list.

I want to take a nap, but I think I might pack up the rest of my stuff instead.

I will be in New Hampshire on Monday.

I am currently digging a mix of The Script, The Fray and Linkin Park.

All totally random, but all so good.

I love everything about today.

I am number four

“There is always hope. New developments have yet to present themselves. Not all the information is in. No. Don’t give up hope just yet. It’s the last thing to go. When you have lost hope, you have lost everything. And when you think all is lost, when all is dire and bleak, there is always hope.”

it will come tomorrow.
just hang in there.

dear chelsie

stop overthinking.
it's dumb.

love,
Chelsie

I am fighting so hard to break the bonds my knee has placed on me.
and yet, I never seem to escape them.
it's so hard not to get discouraged.

I can't believe...

...that I am entering my last week in Rexburg for quite sometime. I am so excited to go home; to breathe solid New England air, to spend quality time with my ocean and summer and getting my freckles, to hang out with my family and to learn more about the beautiful individuals my siblings are becoming. I can not wait to invest time in things that I haven't had the ability to do lately, like reading classic novels and learning Spanish and Chinese and writing long letters to my best friend. I'm anxious, but overall, excited to get my new knee and to recover and work hard to be walking right for the first time in five years. I cannot wait to spend time with my kitty and to sleep in my big, glorious bed and to watch the fireflies come alive on hot August nights as the sun sets.

but honestly, I'm pretty sad about leaving Idaho. Rexburg has been my home for the last year and a half. Some of my favorite memories; my very best friends and the spirit that has taught me and shaped me into the person I am today are all here, in this small little town. There is a spirit and feeling about Rexburg that has change me, for the good. I am better here. I understand life here. I'm closer to God here.

because, when it comes down to it, I didn't know who I was or who I wanted to be until I came here.

As cold as the winters get, and as dull as some nights can be,

this beautiful skyline and the countless stars that are scattered across the sky

the sand dunes, the big hill and the roads that only Cazz and I seem to know

this is where I figured myself out.

I know who I am now.

and I know where I want to go and who I want to continue to be.

So maybe it's okay that I'm leaving now, because I've got it figured out.

Thank you, Rexburg.

My heart may always belong to New England, but a large part of who I am is all thanks to you.

Hello April.

You are bringing a whole lot of change for me.

In just one week, I'll be driving across this whole country, back to my beloved New Hampshire.

In a little over a week, my best friend will be in the mission field.

In three weeks, I'll be getting my knee replaced.

and life, as I know it, will never be the same again.

Bring it on. I'm ready to meet you head on.

If my eyes stay shut.

Look at me, listen close
So I can tell you how I feel before I go
Just a year, it's not much time
For me to show you I am proud that you are mine 
I wish I had known
The future in my heart was just about to start

Say tomorrow, I can't follow you there
Just close your eyes and sing for me
I will hear you, Always near you
I'll give you the words
Just sing for me

Every lock, on every door
I put them there
To try and hide you from the world
And you kicked, yeah you screamed You never understood you're everything to me 
I just hope you know
The future in your heart is just about to start 

Say tomorrow, I can't follow you there
Just close your eyes and sing for me
I will hear you, Always near you
I'll give you the words
Just sing for me

No looking back when I am gone Follow your heart its never wrong 
No looking back when I am gone
Don't second guess the note you're on

Out of time, all out of fight You are the only thing in life that I got right 

Say tomorrow, I can't follow you there
Just close your eyes and sing for me
I will hear you, Always near you
I'll give you the words
Just sing for me